Do YOU Want a Piece of ME?

Everyone else wants one, so I figure you must too.

Sadly though, there are very few pieces of me left to give these days.

Ever feel like you have way too much going on and you just want to hide under a rock for a few weeks?

I'm uh feeling 'stressed' for lack of better words; stressed and a little like a rubber band that is about to snap.

There are a multitude of reasons for this of course; Work, Family, Writing, Running, and well Social Media.

Funny hey...that Social Media would hit my stress list? True Story.

Work has just been crazy busy; usually a good thing as generally being busy means good business and well money.  It also means the day passes quickly and there is nothing worse than being bored (I think - I'm never bored).  Sometimes I feel like the littlest hobo "On the rode again"... ho hum..

Remember this show? It was one of my faves!

Writing; I barely do this anymore.  I have my 'fantastic' novel just beckoning to me but it just sits.  By the time I actually have 'time' to sit and write (or read for that matter) I'm either so mentally drained, or I just want to go to bed. 

Running; I need to train at least 4 days per week to obtain my desired results.  Despite my best efforts this is becoming harder and harder to achieve.  Last night for instance, when I thought it was the perfect night for a run, I found myself with exactly 20 minutes of 'me' time.

This should have been me last night...but it wasn't..besides there are no lakes in Calgary

My Children/Family, they really are very wonderful people, all of them; meeting each of their individual needs however is becoming quite challenging.  Between ensuring I'm there for every event and every bed time.  Making every dinner and doing all of their laundry and well let's not forget quality time (?) I'm wiped.  Yep I admit, I'm just completely wiped.

Social Media: I love it.  I've met some great people, I've been using Social Media to keep in touch and to drive people to read my blogs but you know what? (a) When I don't blog I have nothing to post (b) I spend the entire day looking at my computer and sometimes I just can't do it anymore (c) I have to cater to everyone, make sure their needs are met; at home and at work - that when I don't re tweet or haven't done my klout for the day I feel guilty?? And then I get mad, I have enough 'mother' guilt as it is and sometimes I think I should just cut social media out for awhile (but I don't want to).

I am a very driven and loyal person.  So when I'm not giving 100% at work I feel GUILTY.

I feel like it's my life's purpose to write and when I don't I feel SORRY FOR MYSELF.

I LOVE running.  When I don't run I feel like I have to explain myself (even though no-ones really asking), I'm explaining it to myself truthfully..but I either feel GUILTY or SORRY FOR MYSELF when I don't get to do it.

My children and husband are great.  Each one of them has something really cool about themselves, but quality time seems rare.  It's always the same, there is not a lot of 'connecting' going on with any of them.  I schedule special times, but it doesn't always work out.. so I have that Mother GUILT which makes me feel GUILTY.

Social Media.  If someone is driving 'business' to my blog, or has sent me a nice Tweet or Facebook Message and I don't respond right away I feel GUILTY.  If my Klout score goes down (which it does) I feel SORRY FOR MYSELF.

I can't lose weight (maybe because I'm so tired and just want to eat donuts) so I feel SORRY FOR MYSELF.

I can't (or refuse) to quit smoking, and I've convinced myself I have cancer (just my typical anxiety) so I feel GUILTY.

Obviously....this is not a good thing right?  This is really not how we're supposed to live our lives, but I'm not sure I know how to stop this cycle of insanity!

This blog by the way is not supposed to be a negative-feel sorry for me-blog.  I'm sharing what I know is true of many people out there. 

So how do we get our lives back?  What is the next step? What do we let go of?  I'm really interested in feedback here!

I'm not really going to 'crack' like the blog suggests, but it doesn't surprise me how so many people do.  So..in this day and age how do we do it all?  How do we work to provide for our families? How do we spend quality time with our spouses and children to ensure our marriages are healthy and our kids feel loved? How do we stay healthy in a world were fast food is so prevalent and finding the time to work out is so rare?  How do we live our best lives if we're so focused on living everyone else's?

I need to do this more..hold out my arms in the wind & wear a white dress

Would love to hear from you!